Inevitability
September 28th, 2007 by yuriI haven’t blogged like this for a while. Just about me, and how I feel. Tonight I will.
Tonight I am selfish. Come to think of it, I’ve always been selfish, in the Ayn Rand sort of way. And I’ve come to realise that being that kind of selfish isn’t wrong at all, not to me at least. And I think it’s time that I stopped forcing myself to feel guilty for it.
I’m proud of myself. I’m happy to be me. I control what I can. I mourn what I cannot, but only briefly, after which comes acceptance. I secretly yearn for things I can’t have, but I accept the possibility that I shall live never having them. Life’s like that, isn’t it? You can’t always get what you want. But despite everything, I’m gonna damned well try, dammit. Because if there’s nothing worth trying for, there’s really nothing worth living for, is there?
When I go to work today, I shall hand in my resignation letter, and I shall never work for anyone but myself, ever again.
I am starting out on my own.
I am so excited I can hardly type.
I want to tell you all about it, and I will. There’ll be time.
Wish me luck.
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